laugh trip.

remember all those times you wasted in high school writing about love, crush, motto and your favorite color? haha well my friends and certainly did. earlier my firends and i were hanging out at my bff's. we had nothing else to do so i decided to come up with a great idea! how about going through all those slum notes we had written in high school. (around 7 years ago? haha) my bff was the very patient one who keeps on making a slum note like, every month ata. :)

we were laughing hysterically on how we answer questions back then. napaka walang sense. haha omg! and the crushes, punong puno ng "i never believed i had a crush on that guy!" expressions!! and also our aspirations and careers, it was all very different than today. haha i wanted to take up inter-disciplinary studies as i had written on it. (that was only offered at la salle you dummy!) tapos may mga jejemon na dun! hihihi we just had a good laugh. it was fun! :))

every now and then.

i was in the mood of getting emotional and listened to songs. old songs i should say. :)

"every now and then, i find myself wondering about you.
seems now and again i cant escape the thought of all that might have been."

so okay, still sleep is not getting into me yet. wew!

happiness.

tik tik tik... its our clock, sheesh 1am and im still awake. all i did was toss and turn on my bed. thoughts were runnin' through my head. thoughts that were set aside a few hours ago. and a few hours ago after that.

"di na ko masaya..."

hihi bf broke up with me with those immortal words. all i did was ask him "seryoso?" and "talaga?" because really, we were happy last week and the week after that. no speed bumps. just pure simple happy.  he answered that he was feeling it for quite a while now. wew! never saw that coming. earlier, he came by the house to have "quality time" coz it was his off from work and i had no classes. as it turned out, my very best friend (the pregnant one, remember?) asked me to come with her to libis for her clearance. i couldn't say no to her. she needs me. her pregnancy is somewhat risky so someone had to be with her and i was the only one available. bf suddenly changes mood. i sensed it right there and then. finally when we got home, on fb chat he said the words i had written above.

he is not happy anymore. after 100 days. funny. i said i was ok. everything is fine. i became strong with time and with mistakes and the experience. it made me not feel any pain at all. or.... pretend not to.. i hate people, or my friends telling me the words "i told you so" and "haven't you learned anything?" coz honestly, it always happens. again and again. and honestly, im already ashamed for no learning and making the same mistakes over and over. so i pretend...

tossed and turned.
got up.
brushed teeth.
blogged.

a blessing in disguise?

as of the past 2 weeks, a friend's life turned up side down. cliche. but true. a close friend as i might say. i cannot even begin to describe the impact to me. as i opened my fone one Saturday afternoon after i got home from school, a text from her startled me as i began to cry. a kind of in shock cry i should say... because literally i was in deep deep shock. i never noticed it before coz almost every week we do hang out, we even had drinks the week before so it was possibly untrue.. to me. until i went to the hospital with my friends and found her sitting on the bed of the ob-gyne ward. my very best friend is pregnant of 6 months. :(

as i would recall how i felt after i read her text, all our "dreams" came flashing through. we'll put up a business together, we'll go to hongkong for a vaca, go to parties and get wasted, and even each other's made of honor. she is only 22, a graduate of a 4 year engineering course and with a good paying job. i know she is not ready for a baby. she even gave me her dog coz she couldn't take care of her!! and what really kills me above all this, she and her bf had broken up 2 months ago and the guy had already found somebody else.

i am really excited for our little one, but at first i was really devastated. a child can make a big change to someone's future and priorities. and i know she has a lot on her mind right now. one thing is for sure, i know somehow she'll figure it all out and we are all here to support her in every way. :))

boo hoo..

almost 12am. stuck on movies here coz the net connection is awful. ive decided to watch the hang over. oops! its the 1st part! oh i know i know its been 2 years since its release. haha i just don't like to watch "guy movies". pero im curious now so.. well, nasa part nako were they drove all the way to Vegas to spend the night. bachelor party baby! (what really goes around those parties kaya, lalo na in Vegas?).. they've checked in on the Cesar's palace (i would rather go to the venecia. if given the chance!) and this bearded guy asks if its really Cesar's palace? if Cesar really lived there is what he meant!!! haha laugh trip! teka ill continue this after ive finished the flick......... how about waking up with the baddest hang over and a tiger in the toilet! hahaha ........ DONE! sobrang laugh trip nga! haha i love stu!!! :D im definitely going to see part 2! :)