happiness.

tik tik tik... its our clock, sheesh 1am and im still awake. all i did was toss and turn on my bed. thoughts were runnin' through my head. thoughts that were set aside a few hours ago. and a few hours ago after that.

"di na ko masaya..."

hihi bf broke up with me with those immortal words. all i did was ask him "seryoso?" and "talaga?" because really, we were happy last week and the week after that. no speed bumps. just pure simple happy.  he answered that he was feeling it for quite a while now. wew! never saw that coming. earlier, he came by the house to have "quality time" coz it was his off from work and i had no classes. as it turned out, my very best friend (the pregnant one, remember?) asked me to come with her to libis for her clearance. i couldn't say no to her. she needs me. her pregnancy is somewhat risky so someone had to be with her and i was the only one available. bf suddenly changes mood. i sensed it right there and then. finally when we got home, on fb chat he said the words i had written above.

he is not happy anymore. after 100 days. funny. i said i was ok. everything is fine. i became strong with time and with mistakes and the experience. it made me not feel any pain at all. or.... pretend not to.. i hate people, or my friends telling me the words "i told you so" and "haven't you learned anything?" coz honestly, it always happens. again and again. and honestly, im already ashamed for no learning and making the same mistakes over and over. so i pretend...

tossed and turned.
got up.
brushed teeth.
blogged.