for the next summers to come.

-join gawad kalinga in building houses
-join the red cross
-take vocational course in dress making, pattern making
-make my first dress
-take dance class (belly dancing or samba)
-watch butandings swim in donsol
-bungee jump
-snorkel
-ride the rollercoaster sa EK.
-HONGKONG DISNEYLAND!
-HELLO KITTY LAND

and im thinking of lots to do pa. :)

i lost the guy. sorta.

         after a few weeks of seeing each other, over the holidays the spark vanished. suddenly he doesn't text, and suddenly he doesn't wanna see me. argh. paulit ulit. nakakairita na. anong mali ko? ako na naman ba? haha i was compromising. bullshit. i ate my pride. dammit. alam mo yon? tapos? after everything, he'll suddenly disappear?? i was kind of liking him. nakakaines. as ive found my match, ngayon naman palpak lang. we havent really decided to be together pero i knew he liked me. he made the first move eh. so db? my goodness. he has this certain way with me, the way he lecture me about how he doesn't approve of my bitchiness.. i was afraid with this one incident were he was pissed coz i was being childish. haha alam mo yong takot na, omg galit talaga sya? ganun. gah! i dunno what to do. ayoko na syang itext. ubos na yung natitira kong pride. jusko naman. sana he was mature enough to say it to my face na ok, ayawan na. omg. kamusta naman? kaya ko naman yun e. sos ako pa. kaso i was left here figuring things out for myself kung anong nangyari sa kanya? and sabi nya yung facebook nya blocked? omg. i was checking his page kasi di naka private, aun nag update last dec 24th. nagtimeline. damn. turning tables yung nagpplay. :/

i met a guy...

           haha the title. hilarious. wala ko maisip eh. i met him sa party ng  friend ko. he was the first guy who caught my eye. siguro kase he never left my eyesight the entire time na kumakain ako? andun lang sya sa table kahit tapos na sya mag dinner? anyways, nagkatext kami. and as they say.... the rest is history. haha we've been seeing each other for 2 weeks. and its been great. aha. great. he's my age but mature in a way. he likes to lecture me of being immature daw. haha sya na. the bitch living inside me for years had vanished kase ayaw nya ng annoying tsaka mataray. omg. how will i survive? its the first time that a guy held me this way and im liking it. im learning in a way. na i have to compromise. na di lahat ng gusto ko masusunod. na i should think about how he feels. naks. humanitarian na agad ako. haha tapos sya yung VICTIM? :DDDD

ang matinde nyan...

     12:39.. oh my. my eyes hurt soo bad! yung feeling na matagal kang tumutok sa fan? that's how i feel knowing i was up the entire day from going to school early up until now, finishing my requirements. i cannot wait for the xmas break. looking forward to having more zzzsss in the process. anyhow. haha its been a looonnng time since the last entry. but i still have little more to say. haha echos lang! im almost done so i still had the time to do extra curricular activities. haha i met a guy............................................ :DDDDD

stagnation..

        i hate that word. i feel like ive been in that state for too long. i mean, many of my friends leaped! to higher level towards life, pero ako. tss. still here, in school, and got a few problems na di ko alam pano isosolve.. minsan i would just cry. my friends graduated, working paying their own bills, went abroad, others had their babies and others had been married to a church. wow! nakakainis. naiinis nako sa buhay ko. i dont know where to start. shit.

moving on.

                you know that feeling you get na you just wanna look up there facebook page to know what's going on with them? haha apparently i did with Team A. and napaka public ng facebook nya so kahit di kami friends i could see his wall. eh may constant facebook commenting friend sya at kavideo chat. the girl is someone im going to be insecure with. oh crap! FML. all over again. she has these photos na pang lookbook and shit. hahaha anyways, this is my fault. i should've seen this coming na di naman yun mag wewait for me to clear up my head and go back to him. he has too big of an ego to do that eh. ahahaha and i think kaya ganun dahil nakarating sa kanya na nakikipag balikan si team B. WELL FOR THEIR INFORMATION, WALA NA SILA PAREHO. IM IN PEACE. AMEN. hahaha

:/

                   a friend offered to be "matchmaker".. iintroduce nya daw ako. (yet again. i hate knowing new people.) sa friend nya. mabait daw. haha i have yet to meet him. nakita ko na sa facebook. i have to say, he looks decent. im not going for the looks. as long mabait. and not a cheater ok na. haha is it too soon? well, friends first tapos we'll start from there. kung anung verdict? nakkkoooo.