PARAMORE.

     jerem, josh, hayley and zac            

    i soooo love them. before i went online, i watched muna their concert on dvd for the nth time. hihi
i adore hayley. she is so awesome. i am not rocker chick or whatever, honestly i only knew about her thru my
ex- boyfriend. hearing their songs always makes me remember him. (oops! he is married already.) anyhow, the band is from nashville i think. originally they were 4 in the group but recently the Farro brothers left and hayley, jerem and taylor, their guest rhythm guitarist continued the group. their songs were             not heavy on the ears that's why i love to listen to them. although they are a rock group, their music and lyrics were cool. haha i dunno how to describe their sound. i just wanna listen to them over and over. their lead vocals, hayley is just lovely with friggin' awesome voice to match. :D

                                                                jerem, hayley and taylor

new. :P

                              first outfit post. nakaktamad kasi to edit and take photos sa labas. what i really wanted was a blog post of fashionistas around the metro. alam mo yung mga kasabay mo sa sakayan, or sa bus or sa jeep. sometimes their outfits are remarkable eh. my only problem was how to approach them and say that i want them to be featured on my blog. tss. ive yet to try that. but for now, here is my recent post. im a bit curvy. sorry. haha pasensya. :D

whuttt???

                         following the last blog i posted..

                         its been like, a week? with no messages or text from him. and somehow he had the nerve to call me kanina. around 3am. alam mo ung out of nowhere? ewan ko. naasar ako. sabi nya, the family is asking for me daw. bakit di nako bumibisita. bullfrog! tss. i dunno what he wants from me? as i plan onwalking away from team B, he'll come after me and say lame things like he loves me. wtf. i dont know what to do. obviously, im kinda mejo somewhat into him. again. hindi ba nawala? whatever. hindi ko alam. the fact that december is just around the corner. i hate christmas. wew. seriously. i never did. it seems like a normal day for me. colder and lonelier i guess.

hopes up.

                 certainly, what has been happening with me and TEAM B had my mother suddenly giving me her advice. she said after TEAM B went home na she is really happy that i have the freedom to choose and being 21, im still single and have no plans in the nearest future to settle. hahaha
                  anyways, for the past week after sembreak begun, (parrttyy!) we had been spending time together. TEAM B and i. he was back in his old old ways, being sweet and appreciative and all things mushy. (eeewww.) apparently, we decided to see each other later today. although im preventing myself to not totally lose it to him. ( my inner bitchiness is fading as days went by.) i was really looking forward for the rendezvous earlier, we would watch korean movies although i totally hate watching movies with subtitles but for him i would try. ( oooppsss. ayan na. si mabait anjan na.) well, to make things easier, he did cancel. nakita daw sya ng friend nya and asked him to go out. obviously, i was etchapwera ng bongga. :) he was always like that, even he admitted that to me na i was second priority from his friends.
                  the thing is, i was aware of our relationship status, which is "nothing more than spending time together and having fun". other than that, i guess there's love. haha pero i was hurt. because as much as i dont wanna get too involved, again. he was doing the same things and it still hurts. baliw lang? i really should get my act together, reminding myself how i moved on from being a martyr nyebera to a sneaky bitch i am now. ( wehhhh!) and not forgetting kung hanggang saan lang kami, at kung hanggang saan lang ako sa kanya.

MY MOM'S DAY

        its her birthday today. she just turned 41!!! happy birthday to my one and only loving and understanding mother! she is quite opposite as to other mothers i suppose. maybe 'coz she had us while she was still in her 20's. i never did hear her say "i dont want you to have a boyfriend yet" or "be home by this time" so and so.. i asked her why she was so understanding? :) she answered that she was once a young girl who like to be out and about. but her mother didnt understood that, thus she married early. :) and got us instead. she said she doesn't was us to experience what she had gone through to her mother. the sneaking and lying part.
        i even asked her once to give us curfews, she just answered me with "you know your limits, you are all grown up na." haha asar. but anyways, i guess it worked. many of our friends got married, or even only got pregnant and never married early. as early as 15 i guess. but the proof that my mother's skills at making us free but knows our limits gave her us. my brother is turning 25 and is single. im 21 and very very much available and also my younger brother who is 20. i mean, in other situations youngsters our age had multiple babies and married. hihi
        this is her. my fabulous mother. :D

                                                                   

45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON'T ASK FOR.

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US

26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to
her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

fail.

           last night's rain was hard. i went home wet thru my feet. my shoes soaking wet literally. i went on line for like 5 minutes, cannot text, my phone was totally dead. after 15 minutes, i opened my phone and texts were all over. but there is this particular one that got me thru my tsinelas and went running outside, in the pouring rain! with no umbrella! omg. the text said, "andito ko sa labas nyo. naiwan mo pang bukas ung gate nyo."
            i thought i could get to him, it was like 20 minutes ago na. i called him and asking asan na sya. he picked up and said he was already home. i cried. i dunno why but i did. it was all i ever wanted. the gesture. he came after me as i left. but epic fail, di ko sya naabutan because of my friggin' phone! haha and the argument before the epic fail was crazy. pero it was a different story to tell. :)

            we agreed that the timing wasn't right. everything wasn't right. parang faith? i realized that the time is really wasn't for us at this moment. maybe time will come where we are perfectly made for each other. yung tipong, ito na. ito na talaga. there's no turning back. yung ganon?